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<\/p>\nRUSH: This is also a big day. Ten years ago today, Kathryn and I walked down… Well, Kathryn walked down the aisle. I stood there and waited. I stood there and waited and waited and I kept hoping. I wanted to see the door open at the long way down at the end of the hall. I kept looking and the door didn\u2019t open. I said, “What\u2019s going on? I hope the door opens.”<\/p>\n
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I looked for her dad; I couldn\u2019t find her dad. I looked for her brother; I couldn\u2019t find her brother. I said, “They gotta be with her.” I kept waiting for the door to open, and the door finally opened. I mean, I\u2019m like a jack-in-the-box up there. I\u2019m bopping up and down, eager anticipation, can barely contain myself. And then the door opens, and here comes Kathryn with the Wedding March down the aisle on the arm of her father, her brother nearby.<\/p>\n
And I said, “It\u2019s gonna happen. It\u2019s gonna happen,” and it did. And, folks, I have to tell you, a lot of people get do-overs, a lot of people have false starts. I had my share. I got this one right, thank God. Got this one right. These past 10 years, I cannot imagine — and I\u2019m, by the way, not just saying this. I share my passions with you, and I\u2019ve been open and up front about as much as I can.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ll tell you, I cannot imagine these 10 years without Kathryn in them, especially now, after having gotten the cancer diagnosis. She\u2019s just been a gigantic pillar of strength, and just does everything imaginable and possible to keep things as upbeat and positive as they can be. And I know it\u2019s hard on her. It\u2019s gotta be hard. It\u2019s gotta be devastating on her, but I never see that.<\/p>\n
She always hides it. She has always put me first anyway, but in the last six months or so, I haven\u2019t known what being put first is until these past six months. I\u2019m truly blessed by God with her in my life. She put together last night a video of the wedding that is comprised of still shots. And there were all kinds of still shots of people, guests, Elton John performing.<\/p>\n
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It was just all-encompassing, and she chose the Elton John song “I\u2019m Still Standing” as the song to which all of these pictures are put, almost like a still shot video. “I\u2019m Still Standing” is a perfect, perfect choice, and it even… Its focus is on the wedding, June 5, 2010, but there are even pictures of the State of the Union this past February where I was awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom.<\/p>\n
There\u2019s some great pictures of us on the way to Washington on the plane and then on the way back after the event with the Medal of Freedom around my neck. She sent it to me last night and I looked at it. I just ran out of words and ran out of emotions to describe its impact on me. It was just… I\u2019m sitting here saying, “I\u2019m not worthy,” but, of course, I am, and that\u2019s the point.<\/p>\n
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So I wanted to share all of this with you because I share as much of these kinds of things as I can. But it\u2019s just really a blessing; I\u2019m filled with so many. My entire life has been blessed, and that\u2019s a very comforting way to look at it, to have no regrets. It\u2019s not in my makeup to have regrets anyway, \u2019cause you can\u2019t do anything about it. But literally to have no regrets, to be thankful for all of the people that I have met, all the people who are friends, have become friends.<\/p>\n
All the opportunities that I\u2019ve had, and all of the overwhelming support from across the spectrum that I have had, especially — but not limited to — the past six months. I only hope… I can only hope that for men and women both, that someday — maybe it\u2019s happening now — in your life, that there is a Kathryn who is able to withstand anything that comes your way, to rise above it, to be bigger than it, and to keep you on as even a keel as possible.<\/p>\n
There is also… I\u2019ve got to tell you one other thing. It\u2019s treatment time, ladies and gentlemen. So this means that I will be out at least Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday of next week, and maybe Thursday and Friday. It is treatment time. If this goes this time like it did last time… These are three-week intervals. The infusions have a life span of three weeks, and then you go back and you repeat, for those of you that know how this works.<\/p>\n
The first five days, I was inexperienced with this particular kind of chemo. I\u2019d had the bad experience with the clinical trial drugs, and it was horrible. It was rotten. I had to get off of them. But I had no idea what to expect. You remember the Thursday three weeks ago. You know, I was out Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, came in on Thursday, and I told you I wasn\u2019t gonna be here Friday \u2019cause I was just gassed, meaning I was just worn out.<\/p>\n
From Thursday, Friday, Saturday, to Sunday of that week three weeks ago (sigh), it was yucko. I didn\u2019t talk to anybody. Again, it was like during the clinical trial drug period when they got to their worst. I just disengaged. I\u2019m not complaining. I\u2019m setting you up for the possibility I may miss all of next week if the process repeats, and I\u2019m told that as the stuff is added to the system, it could even get worse. The treatment could become even more intense.<\/p>\n
It doesn\u2019t last for longer than the first week, maybe five days. But still, those first five days happen to coincide with workday week here. So I want you to know I\u2019m gonna do my best to be in here Thursday and Friday of next week, but it may not happen. It just totally depends on how I react. Now, a lot of you continue to ask, “Is it working?” I don\u2019t know. Folks, I really don\u2019t know.<\/p>\n
I can only give you my layman\u2019s assessment of how I feel on a day-to-day basis. You know, there are good days and bad days, and there are good weeks and bad weeks. And this has been a great two-week period. And the last two to three days have been stellar. The last two to three days I\u2019ve almost felt what I consider normal — and normal, to me, is those days before I even knew I had cancer and before I\u2019d even started any kind of treatment.<\/p>\n
I felt that way the past two, three days.<\/p>\n
Now, that isn\u2019t gonna last because the next treatment\u2019s gonna come, and I don\u2019t know why that is.<\/p>\n
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Could it be that the treatment is working or is it that the treatment nearing the end of a three-week cycle is wearing off? And, believe me, these treatments, there\u2019s a lot of stuff that — how to phrase this. They\u2019re hitting me with a lot of stuff. Everybody\u2019s taking this very seriously. In other words, there\u2019s more than just one type of treatment being thrown at me. And so all I can tell you is I\u2019m feeling really good.<\/p>\n
My shortness of breath has not presented in the last three to four days. And that\u2019s the big deal. That\u2019s the most limiting thing when that pops up. There are ways of dealing with that. There are ways of treating that. And they have been successful up to now. I also am of the solid, firm belief that prayers work. I have always thought so. It\u2019s impossible to know. That\u2019s where faith comes in. But my faith is solid that they work. And I know how many of you are engaged in prayer for me.<\/p>\n
In fact, I pray every night to God not to disappoint you, that your prayers be answered. I do it in a respectful way. But that\u2019s pretty much the status. I needed to tell you that next week is treatment week. And I\u2019m looking forward to it, not because of the way I\u2019m gonna feel, but because I just have a sense — and, by the way, this changes. Like the last time when I was going through the days I was gassed and tired, if you would have asked me then, I would have told you, “This isn\u2019t working. This is horrible.” I mean, it\u2019s just the way it affects people.<\/p>\n
Chemo is a poison. It\u2019s dastardly thing. And we tried three different kinds, three different cocktails, and you have to accept that when it\u2019s working sometimes there\u2019s a price to pay for it, and you deal with it. And this is just another example. I would be lost, I literally would be unable to process this as maturely and reasonably as I\u2019m able to with Kathryn leading the way through this. So I\u2019ve been very fortunate, folks.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s like I told you on the first day I announced this, or one of them, when I first saw the videotape or the film of the great New York Yankee, Lou Gehrig, announcing that he had ALS and thus he was retiring from the New York Yankees. He said, “Today I consider myself the luckiest man on the face of the earth.” And I\u2019ll be honest. I watched that, and I said, “How in the world can he think that? He\u2019s just been given a death sentence. How in the world? Is he just saying this for PR? Is this something the Yankees dreamed up that\u2019s gonna build his legacy and so forth?”<\/p>\n
And I was not being critical, just intellectually I didn\u2019t understand how in the world, when you\u2019re just told that you have something for which there isn\u2019t a cure and you are going to succumb to it, how you then go out in front of a packed Yankee Stadium and say you consider yourself the luckiest man alive.<\/p>\n
Well, I understand it now. I don\u2019t mean to be comparing myself to Lou Gehrig. I\u2019m saying I understand the sentiment. I understand exactly what he meant. And it\u2019s because of the people who love you. It\u2019s because of the things that you realize, because of the reflection that you engage in, looking back over your life, the blessings that, in my case, my life has been. So I understand it now, whereas I was confused originally.<\/p>\n
So we just keep plodding on folks. And we take every good day as a good day and hope it\u2019s a trend. And try to be as normal as normalcy permits. It\u2019s hard to escape the attitude that I am a cancer patient, but I try. And I have vowed, the reason I don\u2019t do these updates very much is because I told you I\u2019m not gonna be a cancer patient on the radio. But periodic updates I\u2019ve decided, especially when it\u2019s gonna result in my not being here, you deserve to know. So that\u2019s that one.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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